recollection;

a day at the theme park.

it was fun and chilling with the cold rain. =)

we started off with light activities and sllllooowww rides. i'm amazed at how the architects managed to build an indoor theme park within a shopping mall. the games in there couldn't be considered as very thrilling experiences, but i suppose they would do fine for kids and teenagers.

our lunch was settled in the karaoke box which much bigger than the local ones'. the room was beatifully decorated with cartoons and shiny wallpapers. =) 2 hours of singing plus 2 plates of tidbits and a cup of drink for rm10-20 depending on the food you have chosen. it's ultra worth it! whee!~ we love to sing.

the rain started to pour as we alternated between the indoor and the outdoor parks. the sumptuous dinner deterred us from playing the roller coasters so we went to take the monorail which ended up wasting 1 hour of our youth. it wasn't called a caterpillar for nothing.

whee!~ roller coaster and free fall, here i come! overlooking the whole genting highlands on the freefall machine was definitely scary, and yet, exciting. all i could think of was 'oh my god!' for the first time, i thought that being able to fly wasn't that great either. =P

recollection;

a hectic morning. the meeting was supposed to be at 6am near my house bus stop and i woke up only at 6. the rain was knocking gently on the window panes and seemed to be singing a tuneful lullaby which added on to my sleepy mood. and so i rushed and forgot to bring my ipod which i had been putting in the songs till the early morning just to endure this tormenting bus journey. oh well.

no signs of fatigue even after watching a boring movie on the bus. perhaps love was interesting and rich in content. those who couldn't appreciate this movie probably didn't catch the intertwining plots. many many themes crossed with the past recollections and the present scenes. very nice movie. =)

CLICK HERE for sex id test on bbc website to see which sex is your brain! =)

my results:

Part 1
Angles

This task tested your ability to identify the angle of a line by matching it with its twin. This is a spatial task, which looks at how you picture space.

Your score: 19 out of 20
Average score for men: 15.1 out of 20
Average score for women: 13.3 out of 20

What does your result suggest?

If you scored 0 - 12: You have more of a female brain. Scientists believe that people with a female brain find it more difficult to judge the slope of a line because they're not wired for spatial tasks. In past studies, 65 per cent of people who scored in this range were women.

If you scored 13 - 17: You found this test neither hard nor easy. This suggests your brain has male and female traits when it comes to spatial ability.

If you scored 18 - 20: You have more of a male brain. On average, men outperform women in this task and those with more mathematical knowledge tend to score quite high as well. In past studies, 60 per cent of the people in this range were men.

Interestingly, men's testosterone levels fluctuate through the seasons and studies have shown that men's scores are lower in the spring, when their testosterone levels are at their lowest.

Spot the difference
This task tested your ability to identify which objects changed position. You lost points, if you incorrectly identified objects.

Your score: 36%
Average score for men: 39%
Average score for women: 46%


What does your score suggest?

If you scored between 0 - 33%: You may have more of a male brain. Scientists say men tend to under perform in this task. The corpus callosum, the part of the brain that links the right and left hemispheres, is a fifth larger in women. This means women can process visual and other signals at the same time more easily than men. There is also a theory that oestrogen levels in women give them an added advantage in spatial memory.

If you scored between 34 - 66%: You may have a balanced female-male brain.

If you scored between 67 - 100%: Those with a female-type brain generally score in this range. Your ability to remember where objects are may serve as an advantage to you when you're trying to find your way around places. You're more capable of recalling landmarks to get from one place to another.

Part 2
Hands
You said your right thumb was on top when you clasped your hands together.

Right thumb on top: This suggests the left half of your brain is dominant. Many studies have tried to establish whether there is a relationship between handedness and brain dominance. Some scientists believe that if you are left brain dominant, you would be more verbal and analytical.

Left thumb on top: This suggests the right half of your brain is dominant. Some studies theorise that as a right brain dominant person, you may excel in visual, spatial and intuitive processes.

However, these theories are debatable and leave much to be said about the small percentage of people who are ambidextrous.

Part 3
Emotions and Systems
This task looked at whether you prefer to empathise or systemise.

Empathising

Your empathy score is: 11 out of 20
Average score for men: 7.9 out of 20
Average score for women: 10.6 out of 20


What does your result suggest?

Empathisers are better at accurately judging other people's emotions and responding appropriately. If you scored 15 and above, you are very empathic and would be an ideal person to comfort people in a time of crisis. Women in general are better at empathising.


Systemising

Your systemising score is: 8 out of 20
Average score for men: 12.5 out of 20
Average score for women: 8.0 out of 20

What does your result suggest?

Systemisers prefer to investigate how systems work. A system can be a road map, flat pack furniture, or a mathematical equation – anything that follows a set of rules. A score of 15 and above suggests you're good at analysing or building systems. Men in general are better at systemising.

Scientists are keen to learn more about people who score high or low on both tests. They want to find out whether or not empathising and systemising are linked. Is a possible to make yourself more empathic?

Eyes
This task tested your ability to judge people's emotions.

Your score: 8 out of 10
Average score for men: 6.6 out of 10
Average score for women: 6.6 out of 10

What does your result suggest?

If you scored 0 - 3: Do you think you're good at judging how another person is feeling? Your score suggests this doesn't come to you quite so naturally.

If you scored 4 - 6: Your result suggests you have a balanced female-male brain and find it neither easy nor difficult to judge people's emotions.

If you scored 7 - 10: Your result suggests you are a good empathiser, sensitive to other people's emotions. Women generally fall into this category.

Professor Baron-Cohen at the University of Cambridge says that people usually perform better than they expect to on this test.

Part 4
Fingers
We asked you to measure your ring and index fingers. Your ratios came to:

Right Hand: 1
Left Hand: 0.98

Average ratio for men: 0.982
Average ratio for women: 0.991
It's thought that your ratio is governed by the amount of testosterone you were exposed to in your mother's womb. The ratio of the length of your index finger to the length of your ring finger is set for life by as early as three months after conception. Even during puberty, when we experience intensive hormonal changes, the ratio stays the same.

Men generally have a ring finger that is longer than their index finger, which gives them a lower ratio than women, whose ring and index fingers are usually of equal length.

Part 5
Faces
This task looked at how you rate the attractiveness of a series of faces. The images you looked at were digitally altered to create slight differences in masculinity.

Your choices suggest you prefer more masculine faces.

Highly masculinised male faces possess more extreme testosterone markers such as a long, broad and lower jaw, as well as more pronounced brow ridges and cheekbones.

Interestingly, women's preferences are said to vary across the menstrual phase. A more masculine face is preferred during the 9 days prior to ovulation, when conception is most likely.

A typical 'attractive' female face possesses features such as a shorter, narrower, lower jaw, fuller lips and larger eyes than an average face.

Part 6
3D shapes
This task tested your ability to mentally rotate 3D shapes.

Your score: 9 out of 12
Average score for men: 8.2 out of 12
Average score for women: 7.1 out of 12

What does your result suggest?

If you scored 0 - 6: Do you find yourself having to physically rotate a map to point in the direction in which you're travelling? This might explain why you scored in the lower range in the 3D shapes test. Twice as many women as men score in this category. Previous studies suggest that those with a female-type brain or with an arts background fall into this range.

If you scored 7 - 9: In past studies, 50 per cent of the people who scored in this range were women and 50 per cent were men.

If you scored 10 - 12: Are you an engineer or do you have a science background? People with these skills tend to score in this range. Past studies have concluded that people in this range have a more male brain.

Words
This task looked at your verbal fluency.

Your score: you associated 8 word(s) with grey and you named 19 word(s) that mean happy. We are assuming that all the words you entered are correct.

Average score for men: 11.4 words total
Average score for women: 12.4 words total

What does your result suggest?

If you produced 1 - 5 words: You are more of the strong, silent type with a male brain. You probably find it easier to express yourself in non-verbal ways, preferring action rather than words.

If you produced 6 - 10 words: Most people in this range have a female-type brain.

Women are said to use both sides of the brain when doing verbal tasks while men mainly use their left side. Studies have shown that girls develop vocabulary faster than boys. This difference in brain power is caused by levels of pre-natal testosterone.

Ultimatum
This task asked you how you would divide money.

If you had to split £50 with someone, you said you would demand £25

So far on the Sex ID test, men have demanded 51.6% (£25.80) of the pot and women have demanded 51.0% (£25.50), on average.


What does your response suggest?

Sex differences are small in this task. Demanding less than 60% of the pot (ie £30) is more typically female. Demanding more than 65% of the pot (ie £32.50) is more typically male.

Scientists believe that people with lower testosterone levels tend to take fewer risks so they are probably more willing to keep less for themselves. Those with higher testosterone levels tend to drive a harder bargain and are less compromising.

Men's testosterone levels fluctuate over the seasons and are at their lowest levels during the springtime. This is said to influence their bargaining power.

i hope he had given this without any intention. i would hate to receive any present with a motive in it. i suppose the other girls feel the same way too.

sumo house outing was fun. =) jan's cheesecake was a success too! i'll remember she promised to make an ice cream cake for my birthday! go go go jan!

mochi from chinatown's yi pin wei. =) it's big, spongy and powdery! 5 different flavours to choose from: green tea, yam, red bean, peanut and black sesame. my sister likes the green tea ones and i like the peanuts ones!!! =) go try if you can!

今天的那场雨来得真不是时候，似乎恼人的情绪还不够。

整个公司一片混乱。爱情，友情，旁人的闲言闲语，互相的猜疑。我开始发觉到人行的可怕。听了越多，客观也会变得被动，也会开始用有色眼镜去对待某些事。不是刻意的，但就是很难保持原有的理智了。

她说他对他只有友谊，可是反应却大到可怕。如何去分辨？
她说她不知道他们上个礼拜去教堂，可是上个礼拜他们说的话好像暗示着什么？
她被问及是不是喜欢上我们都认识的人，她否认了，那她算在欺骗好友吗？
我对她好，算不算在背叛我们的组？

我很厌倦。。。
我根本不想卷进去。。。
我什么都没做啊。。。

intensely uptight in the office. they don't even bother to wait for us when we were lagging behind. this clique thing is getting on my nerves.

and now, i really hate it when people start complaining to me about their acceptance letter, interviews and what not. stop whining, you people, because i haven't received even a damn thing from those bloody universities!

my mind is exploding from information and anxiety overloaded. lots of problems yet i see no solutions to these detestable troubles.

firstly, the clique thing seemed to worsen. there seems to lie an unspoken rule that we should always stick to that particular formation for lunch and toilet breaks. xy had really sprung us a HUGE surprise when he jumped an attack on us to join us for lunch. that made the total number of people having lunch become 12. so the usual 5 of us were together and xy walked over to our table and said to the other 'supposedly clique', "so you all are going to abandon me here?" looking back at history, the first ever person to break us into cliques is him, and i find it extremely disturbing.

second thing, the other clique is always dilly-dallying during lunch. many a times, they refuse to budge after lunch and we would arrive late at our workplace. i thought they should have been a bit more sensitive. their seats are far away from our supervisors and that makes the rest of us bear the brunt of the attack and stares.

so all this leads to a BIG problem of the clique thing. as said it seemed that this problem only caused unhappiness on us instead of the other clique. wen kept complaining to me about her supervisor leaving her out when he was teaching new stuffs and she just so happens to be surrounded by the other clique. i was dumbfounded as i simply didn't know how to console or advise her.

after work, i had to leave with the other clique and they indulged themselves with internal jokes which i didn't understand. everybody's nice individually, but cliques can distant people terribly. i guess everybody can feel the tension and avalanche between each other. i find it hard to avoid this though i try to remain neutral. anyway, everybody's trying to tell me their views about this problem, oh god, i feel lost.

i got this nightmare last night where i was in debt. dreamt of my jc class which i never want to meet in my whole life again. it was a stressful dream as i was in debt of over a thousand bucks and the problem of striking a balance between family and friends. the nightmare continued where a friend told me right smack in my face that it'd be quite tough for me to enter an university. oh god. it was a stressful night.

i guess my dream sort of depict my real life situation. no matter how much i don't want to admit, deep inside my heart, i had this well-hidden thought that i wouldn't be able to get into university. dreaming of my ex-classmates might be my fears of meeting them again in my future life and it pretty much fit the same scenario of the clique thing which i'm facing now. the debt would be my financial situation whereby i hadn't even earned much since i'd started working, probably hadn't even earned.

daniel called me today to ask how i am getting by and i told him i want to quit the sales job already. he asked me why so i just told him frankly that their schedule is not very regular. despite the fact that he insisted he had sent me a message to apologise for not asking me to go for work this whole month, i'm not quite sure whether i should trust him on that. afterall, i didn't receive his message. the thing is, i've quitted my sales job, period!

rumbles aside, we'd gotten our new bags at bugis! =) we had dinner at memoirs! i could sense fahrenheit's footsteps!!! they were here before! the food was nice too! a set meal consists of a drink, a main course and a dessert which costs only $6.90++!

这几天，公司发生了一些事，搞得整个气氛怪怪的。女生可能很擅长‘分门别类’，就喜欢和某一类的人一起，然后封闭自己，不去参与其他‘组’的交谈与讨论。大家都感受到这僵局，但也无能为力。我了解，勉强是没有幸福的。如果觉得合不来就不必勉强自己去迎合别人。可是，我们之前不是好好的吗?

梦里花，如果大家的心都像茉莉花一样纯白，或许就不会有那么多争执与难堪了。突然可以翻脸不认朋友的人是那么的可怕。我真的真得很庆幸，我的好朋友从来没有，也不会背叛我。

开心的事！终于和小莉见面了！是很想买东西，可是，只要一想到辛辛苦苦赚来的钱就很不下心去买。毕竟，这个月已经有一笔大开销了。加油吧！花得多，赚得多！

梦里花 （张韶涵）
唯一纯白的茉莉花
盛开在琥珀色月牙
就算失去所有爱的力量
我也不曾害怕

天空透露着微光 照亮虚无迷惘
在残垣废墟之中 寻找唯一梦想
古老的巨石神像 守护神秘时光
清澈的蓝色河流 指引真实方向
穿越过风沙 划破了手掌
坚定着希望 去闯

唯一纯白的茉莉花
盛开在琥珀色月牙
就算失去所有爱的力量
我也不曾害怕

穿越千年的石版画
刻划着永恒的天堂
轻轻拭去满布全身的伤
我从不曾绝望


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不痛 (张韶涵）
一点点痛的感觉　加上一点我对你的思念
承诺不算太遥远　遥远只剩一瞬间

一步步靠近终点　再差一步我们踏上永远
谎言让人太陶醉　陶醉在你给的世界

我不想不愿不去承认我的执着
怕不知不觉无法忍住眼泪不流～　
是爱伤害了彼此的自由

你不看不听不说为什么要离开我
我不哭不笑　只剩下沉～默　
带着我的骄傲高飞远走

紧握过的双手　拥抱过的温柔
所有的对错　跟着脚步你一并带走

带着我的骄傲高飞远走

i guess i'm just like yan nowadays, needing lots of comfort food. the problem lies in i don't know why i need comfort food. pringles, doughnuts, ice creams, soft drinks, lay's, ruffles, chocolates and many others seem so essential in my life that i can even eat them after a feast.

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met they all up to buy similar bags, just like a bunch of secondary students. we didn't reach any agreement and planned to go to bugis on friday again to source for better ones. hopefully we're able to do it. =)

i can't believe we went into precious tots to look at the ya-lun-look-alike thrice. ok, thrice for me. the thing is, we were so reserved that none of us didn't exactly dare to look at him right straight. and we make a big detour to go out of the shop so that we wouldn't pass by him. i bet the other female employers were suspicious of us as they gave us strange stares. how exciting! =P

i realise i haven't been reading for quite a while. totally lost contact with current affairs and i felt kind of guilty for detaching myself with current news. so i bought a set of chinese newspaper to make myself feel better. to my dismal, there was nothing much in today's newspaper. is the world really that peaceful?

i felt my life reverting a little back to normal without the sales job for 2 weeks now. i'm caught in this dilemma of whether to quit my sales job since it's giving me a terribly unstable schedule. which makes me unable to pre-plan anything. Thus, causing me to lose much of my precious time with my friends. i'm still thinking... ... ... ...

i miss my piano... i would really love to see a grand piano which is made up of transparent materials, where i can see the insides. or... an upright one would be fine.



Piano (范逸臣)
白鍵是那一年海邊沙灘　浪花的繾綣　黑鍵是和你多日不見
彈指間　海岸線　你的淚　我的眼　模糊天邊

每個人心中都有架鋼琴　塵封在回憶　任憑我只是你的插曲
時間偶爾提起　鋼琴偶爾哭泣　那些凌亂片段

如果愛還能再重來　我期待澎湃永遠在
oh~~每次琴蓋打開　便有歌來自大海
如果愛我已不存在　我希望有一段精采　
讓回憶有所感慨

白鍵是現在我哀悼昨天成全你改變　黑鍵是原諒我的原諒
好想再彈一遍　手指卻只聽見　妳的抱歉

oh~ oh~ oh~ 有所感慨
oh~ oh~ oh~ 呼~

i didn't feel like talking or answering or doing anything. i had been feeling extremely lethargic despite the increased rest time. or was it because of the extra time to slack that i yearned for even more rest?

terrible block nose.

made a futile trip to imm wanting to post some stuffs and ended up back at home in an hour's time. the initial plan to meet my friend up was cancelled at the very last minute because of my horrible block nose and uncontrollable lethargy. furthermore, my mum didn't really know about my health signalling the red light and thundered at me when i refused to answer her question or that i'd answered too softly. i gave her somewhat of an indifferent attitude and it drove her nuts. she spoilt my mood to go out. anyway, the bulk of the reason was because i wasn't feeling really well.

yup. so i stayed at home and some sort of 'recuperate'.

曙光(Tank)
我还在想哪个方向　才能找到希望曙光
没有力量心情很慌　连问题都无法阻挡

我在想找方向　希望的曙光
而你是我的翅膀　带我飞翔　抚我伤
你是我的力量　赐我勇敢与刚强(很脆弱的)

i guess this is what most of my friends need at this point of time.

today is black friday. not a very special occasion. anyway, it's jan's last day at work and our DRESS up day, as in literally 'dress day'. =) when you see a huge group of people dressing up to go to an ulu place in redhill, what would your thoughts be? i bet we had invited lots of attention as many people came to tell me their views on our dress code today. probably the farewell photo would show more explicitly.

a guy commented that we looked pretty while the other said we look exaggerating. another gave me a good analysis on who looked great and who didn't, plus all the minor details of all of our dresses and what we should do and why. we had too much time to spare anyway. i suppose we did invite lots of unknowing stares and shocks. i wonder why do guys hold such vast views?

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after work, i met up with sharon. it seemed that both of us didn't really contact with the rest of our ex-classmates. probably to the others, i'd disappeared into thin air. i didn't really want to see them anyway. nice bunch of people, but we just don't clique. even as time goes by, our feelings for each other would still be mutually superficial.

and yes, sharon, we made a promise that we'd meet at least once per month, don't forget. =P

so i've gotten a transfer and my colleague whom was supposed to get a transfer with me took an urgent leave. a slack environment while i spent half my day in linda's room talkin to her. the other half of the day was spent ticking the documents as usual. i should have done it even slower, man.

i was supposedly getting a transfer yet we waited for the whole day and were still stuck in the little box. i didn't even intend to switch on the computer but the long wait forced me to and played some games. then pang pang wanted us to help since we were waiting. so the time went by and it was 5.30pm.

what a waste of my youth.

oh, what a supposedly family gathering. i pity my mum for putting in the effort to prepare for the long-awaiting potluck only to find out that half of them weren't even preparing to attend the family gathering today. so much for me sacrificing my time with my besties to come for this 'family gathering'.

spent the whole time watching a korean show 'which planet do you come from', (i did a direct translation from the chinese title). the plot is a bit cliched, but it captures me to continue watching, be it sheer boredom or be it the artistes. it turns a bit draggy in the middle but you can just fast forward it.

evan yo was in town at bugis junction! how sad. i had wanted to take a look at his mega watt smile which would mesmerize everybody around him. seeing him smile makes me smile unknowingly too! =D oh, his smile...

went to jane's house to watch the variety show which flh went on. the time we have now is so precious as our schedules clashed. even spending a few hours at jane's house can be so enjoyable. i wish i have the time to finish watching ko one, but i don't even have time to watch tv nowadays, let alone that.

i'm reading death note. occasionally, their theories would be so in depth that i don't understand the point, but the plot is really interesting. personally, i like the death gods though they look intimidating. =)

l looks really cute in this picture! >.<

和他们去了一趟牛车水。真得很感谢他们的鼓励和陪伴。虽然大家都又累又饿了，却还是默默的陪我。

真的很谢谢。

我相信，只要对别人诚恳，别人也会同样的对待你的。即使遇到尴尬的事件，平日若对人有礼，还是会有人伸出援手的。=) 就好像今天的淑芬。。。

有笔大生意，我的继续做了，明天见！

happy birthday.

i should be out with you but i didn't really want to.

your present is still with me, but i don't know when i'll pass it to you. probably never.

i hope you'll be more mature and move on.